Thursday, November 05, 2009

Excited Fool

I never thought of it this way before. I couldn't really concentrate too well while studying today. Had no idea why. Then just now on msn Nat told me why. Because i am an excited fool. SERIOUSLY. It was as if you could see the light bulb flicker on above my head. IT IS SO TRUE.

I am so freaking excited at the prospect that it will soon be over, I cannot focus. WHICH IS BAD. But that is not the point of this post. So yeah.

I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT FOR NEXT FRIDAY OMG. THE THINGS I'M GOING TO DOOOOOOO! There's like so much to look forward to I wanna scream man.

Going out with Natty, Amanda and Dionne on Friday after the paper, and then meeting my parents for lunch and a movie, then cell. Saturday is our first cheer prac after Os! Oh and I think we'll be having a 6 Hope reunion lunch/dinner or something. Then Sunday if Mavis or whoever is free I wanna go out and play! And then the next week Cleo suggested we go ice skating, and I totally wanna go shopping. I think my mummy's taking leave to go shopping with me, heh.  Then tuesday, I can go back for p arts! :D Then I think Rebecca's coming over to swim/lose weight with me ahahaha. Then then. Friday to Sunday's cluster chalet! And then Sunday is prom! WHOOOO~

And the whole time, cheeeeeer would have resumed! WHEEEEEEE! OMG OMG OMG YOU KNOW HOW EXCITED I AMMMMMMM??!!?? AHAHAHAHA.


Now, back to the books.


Had this sudden urge to create a new blog so I did. HAHA. Go visit hahaha. Haven't decided which I'll be keeping or maybe I'll just use both interchangeably for the fun of it. Oh well. Need to study nowwww. :/

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Better Than Sex

Hello, Royce chocolate is the sex. You are not allowed to disagree.

AHAHAH. I absolutely adore that phrase it's like. WHA-?

Last time, Amanda and I ate this really nice mango in school. And when she was describing it to Huai Chyn and puppy, she said "It's like. (widen eyes) Better than sex." Huai Chyn and puppy went like this :O and then like this XDDDD. It was quite funny. So I was like "Amanda, you've never even had sex." And Amanda goes "Well, I know. But I imagine it to be better." HAHAHAAH.

Anyway okay back to Lit and Bio. BYEEEEEEE.

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Okay srsly. MLIAs are FREAKING FUNNY. 

Today, in Science class my teacher asked us what we thought of when we heard the word "evolution". I thought of Pokemon, but I didn't say anything. MLIA.

Tonight, I was listening to the radio on my way home. “Heartless” by Kanye West came on, a few seconds into the song, the DJ stopped it and said “just kidding!” and proceeded to play “You Belong with Me” by Taylor Swift. This made my whole day. MLIA

Today, the whole world came crashing down on me, so I got some tape and stuck the map back onto the wall. MLIA

Today, I wanted to comment on a friend's status, but it was only a few seconds old and I didn't want to seem like a stalker. I waited a few minutes and then commented. MLIA

Today, I renamed my iPod "This ship" just for the pleasure of seeing the phrase "This ship is syncing" MLIA

Today I was eating a cupcake when the phone rang. I panicked and stuffed the entire cupcake into my mouth. I still don't know why I did that. MLIA

Today, I was sitting in my room and heard a little boy outside sneeze. I said bless you, and five seconds later, I heard a very hesitant...."God??." MLIA

Today, I got farther with a girl than I ever have before. We ran 10 miles. MLIA.

Today I saw a crunchy looking leaf in the street. I went substantially out of my way in order to step on it. MLIA.

Today I found my ipod, put my earbuds in, and sat down to do my homework. Two hours later, I finished and took my earbuds out. I then realized I had never turned my ipod on. MLIA

Today, on MSN my boyfriend said to me 'You're such an angle', meaning angel. He didn't understand why I replied 'Aww, you're so acute.MLIA

Today while working on a french essay I realized that despite being a 19-year-old university student who has been reading quite competently for many years, I still sing the alphabet every time I need to look up a word in the dictionary. MLIA

Today, my 14 year old brother asked me if I would give him a bottle of vodka for his sleepover. I did. When I came home the bottle was empty and they were all extremely drunk. I still haven't decided whether or not I should tell him it was soda water. MLIA

Today, I began writing a paper that is due tomorrow morning. Instead of writing today's date in the header, I wrote the date it was three days ago to make it seem like I didn't start this last minute. MLIA.

Today, I saw that my ironing board cover was wrinkled. I laughed at the irony. Then I laughed again because irony has the word iron in it. MLIA

Today for homework we had to combine two animals and descibe our creation. I combined a bee and a ostrich. I named it a beeotch. MLIA.

Today I was watching Aladdin on Disney and realized that when he and Jasmine fly across the world, they pass a background from Hercules and Mulan. My world just exploded. MLIA.

Today, my know-it-all university professor said, "Was is always a verb". I then raised my hand and said, "It's a noun in that sentence...". Never before have I felt so cool. MLIA

AHHHH OMG I LOVE MLIAs ahahahaha. They're so real and random. 

It's like, 

Today, I saw a cat. And then I saw a dog. I knew it was a message to me. Time to take a nap.

Okay okay maybe not THAT random, but still. IT'S AWESOME YO. HAHAHAHAHA.

Anyway, I linked my title to MLIA. Go for it! :D

Monday, November 02, 2009

My Life Is Average

A new website for everyone to go to, as taught by Weiqing! OMG SRSLY IT'S FUNNIER THAN FML. FML is like all oh my life sucks and incurs the occasional EEEEW THAT'S SICK. This one hor, is OMG THIS IS SO RANDOM IT'S FUNNY! Seriously. There are some super random but FREAKING HILARIOUS ONES. Take these for example.

Yesterday, I saw a teenager dressed as a devil jump out to try and scare a kid dressed as a priest. Without skipping a beat, the priest smacked the devil with his bible, then chased him around screaming, "The power of Christ compels you!" MLIA

Today, my refrigerator was making odd noises that sounded very similar to a dog growling. I stared at it for a bit and then barked at it. To my surprise it stopped immediately. At least my fridge knows who's boss. MLIA.

Today, I was reading a manual for my new power saw. One of the major warnings was, 'May be harmful if swallowed.' You think? MLIA

Since last night was Halloween, my little brother brought home a bunch of candy. Among the chocolates and other candies were those gummy hamburgers. This morning my brother had left me a hamburger that was missing the pink gummy 'patty' piece, and had 2 green 'lettuce' pieces. I appreciate my brothers subtle humor with my vegetarianism. MLIA

Today, I finally managed to say "Piii...kaa.." before I sneezed. I was on the subway, and the guy sitting opposite me started laughing really hard and then went: "Your life is average!" I shall never underestimate the power of this website. MLIA

Tonight I was babysitting. I have been pretty upset about my recent break up with my ex byfriend. When the girl I was babysitting asked me why I looked so sad, I told her that I had just gone through a tough break up. She nodded and left the room. When she returned, she was holding The Sims video game and said "Let's kill him!" Made my night. MLIA

Today, I was passing out candy, and this kid came to the door dressed in completely everyday clothing, while holding an iron. I was confused, and I asked him what he was supposed to be. The answer? Iron man. I was I was awestruck and could only stare at him as he silently took some candy from the bowl I had in my hand. I wish I had that much imagination as a kid. MLIA

I work at a YMCA watching kids in a drop-off area. One woman came in with five kids, two boys, a girl, and a pair of boy-girl twins. Their names? Chuckie, Tommy, Angelica, Phil and Lil. I was overjoyed. MLIA.

Today, I asked an embarrasing personal question to one of my close friends on MSN and they just said “JFGI.” I had never seen that abbreviation used before, so I googled it. Then I laughed… for several minutes. MLIA

Yesterday my friend and I were walking down the stairs in my school when we noticed the bulletin board had a sign that said "Have A Happy Fall!" My friend and I laughed at the irony. Then I promptly fell down the stairs. MLIA

Today for Halloween, I had to pass out candy to the little kids. When I looked to my neighbor's yard, he just left a bucket full of candy with a sign saying "Please take two" and there was a garbage can right next to it. I saw a little kid laugh and try to take a handful, until my neighbor popped out of the trash can in a mask yelling " I SAID TAKE TWO!" The kid ran away crying. This happened about 18 more times. MLIA

Today, I watched the Lion King with my little brother, who had never seen it before. When Nala and Simba were reunited and they were jumping around, he said, "This movie isn't realistic. Lions can't stand on their hind legs!" I politely reminded him that all the animals had been talking the entire movie. MLIA

Today, I dressed up as a Fed-Ex employee for school. As I was taking the stairs to my next class, I saw a guy dressed up as UPS. We had an intense battle on the stairs. I won. MLIA.

Today, I was going to the bathroom when I happened to glance down and see that my pee was blue. I screamed. Then I realized it was toilet bowl cleaner that I'd forgotten to flush. MLIA.

I go to Purdue University and woke up 20 minutes before my class started. Forgetting I was wearing our rival's hoodie, Indiana University, I got on the bus for class. A girl on the bus called me out for it and without missing a beat I told her I was being "stupid" for Halloween. The whole bus applauded. MLIA

AHH ANYWAY. That's enough. You go read the rest yourself. IT'S HILARIOUS. XD

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Revolutionary Ride Revelations

Linking on from Amanda's awesomely true post. IT IS SO TRUE.

I've gathered myself, that bus rides are the best time to make a new invention or remember some childhood memory that could save all of mankind or something awfully amazing like that. Or even just well, some self gratifying epiphany about that mystery meal you were wondering whether you really ate or only dreamed it. Okay I'm not making sense here but whatever. Studying for the Os is waaaaay too much for my little head.

So, as I was saying. Sometimes, I prefer to be alone on the bus as compared to being with people, not because I'm anti-social or hate the world or anything no no no. It's just, when I'm alone in the bus, my mind does fantastical things.

Take that day for instance. I went for a run with Amanda after our prelim paper a few weeks ago. And while we sat at the specs stand after the 6 rounds talking, I realised that the sec two sports class behind us wa shaving lessons. And i was like wah. so poor thing got extra lessons. But didn't say anything.

So after I left Amanda and was on my way home IN THE BUS (ahh this is where it gets exciting) I looked at my phone and realised it was 10:54 am. I was like WAIT A MINUTE. It's morning. It's a weekday. It's a school day. Those sec twos weren't having extra lessons, they were having normal school! :O

I WAS SO SHOCKED BY MY REVELATION I CALLED AMANDA AND RELATED THE NEWS TO HER IN A SHAKY VOICE AND QUAKING HANDS. And she gave me the quiet, weak voice and said "Vanesssssss, that's common sense, not an epiphanyyy...." And I hung up on her after insisting it was a revelation.

BUS RIDES ARE AWESOME. I think, that the reason why, is because when you're taking the bus, your mind tends to wander. And when your mind is empty, the thing you think about most subconsciously immediately surfaces.

And well, for Amanda, I guess. She just always thinks about. Um. Pointless things. MMMPFT. No I'm not laughing. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. LOVE YA AMANDA. So yeah. Go on publish what I just wrote in the REVOLUTIONARY RIDE REVELATIONS.

The world's gonna love my geniosity. Or at least I think there's such a word.

Friday, October 30, 2009


Just for back from Unleash! The FCBC dance ministry recital! IT'S REALLY GOOD (: From one dancer to another, I loved especially Soul which Rachel and Chrislyn were in i think, and Chrislyn's Skip skip skip to my lou. I think Soul had a lot of haunting images that really captured emotions well.

But I really liked the piece Chrislyn choreographed. Okay call me biased, but is Chrislyn talented or what! The meaning behind it was really sweet. Basically about a young child and her lover/playmate trying to escape the harshness and terrors of war.

I loved how they used strobe lighting and stuff to portray the war effect but at the same time had the very child-like and innocent touch to certain movements. And Chrislyn's outfit was sooo cute :D Oh and i loved how they were like in their own worlds as they danced, really capturing the childish quality of the piece and how children think sometimes. Having their own worlds.

It reminded me so much of the song 'Big Girls Don't Cry' by Fergie. In that, there's this part in the song that says 'We'll be playmates and lovers, and share our secret worlds.' It captured that moment so well and so beautifully. I'm totally trying out for the dance ministry now! HAHAHA.

Just hope they want me :/ I haven't danced in like. 5 months! ACK! I probably lost any inkling of flexibility or rhythm I might once have possessed. GAH. So gonna take dance lessons after Os! Going to take with Nat, Amanda and Mavis and her friend Veeneetha I think.

HAHA I KNOW RIGHT AMANDA. :DD Nah don't be so mean. Maybe she has like a reaaaaally hidden talent for dancing! (gives innocent face) REALLY! XDDD

anyway gtg sleep now, chem tuition tmr, haha. NIGHTTTTT (:

Tuesday, October 27, 2009



It is invigorating to take your O level exams I tell you! I've never felt so alive! :O Okay la I'm kinda exaggerating. But it is quite thrilling! HAHA. It's the second day of it today wooooosh! Gotta leave my house in abt, 2 hours or so. Kinda fun, this O level thing. AHAHA and what's even more fun is that when it's over, woah man, I will fly okay.

I told Amanda we must go do some cool things like shout to the sea and tie notes to balloons and release them and stuff. Omg so fun! Hahahah. :d Alright got to go get into my zen now for the paper later. HAHA. By that i mean pray. So you pray for me toooo (:

Saturday, October 24, 2009

I Look So Good (without you)

I look so good without you,
Got me a new hairdo,
Lookin fresh and brand new,
Since you said that we're through.
Done with your lies,
Wavin now my tears dry,
You can see my brown eyes
Ever since you said goodbye
I look so good,
I look so good without you.
I look so good,
I look so good without you.


I Look So Good
Found this on Cheryl's blog. Omg I love it like shit. :D THANK YOU SMALL ONE :D You've made my day. (:

Thursday, October 22, 2009


The blue outside my window, is a melancholic shade of blue. It is a blue that isn't quite as vibrant as the electrics on tacky sports car wannabes, nor quite as soothing as the baby blue of the sky at midday.

It's almost like a geranium was leaking and leaked its deep, almost violet blue all over the world and is peeping in through my window.

I step out, out my window and into the blue. It envelopes me like the sea. But I'm not surrounded by water, I am held by the loving embrace of blueberry blue. It mirrors my head, it echoes my heart as the blue flows all around me, caressing me, holding me in my insecurities.

I feel like crying, but the tears don't flow. The blue simply absorbs my pain and in turn sends numbing waves of cool oblivion through me. I haven't experienced such peace in a long while now.

It's getting darker, my blue is slowly slipping away. I feel like someone has dripped a drop of black ink into a cup of blueberry juice and I begin to panic as the black spirals its way around my world.

Little wisps emerging from the original drop, diffusing rapidly to every corner of my blue. It is staining, defiling my blue. I feel like I'm losing myself as I watch everything around me get dimmer and dimmer. And slowly, my entire world has slipped into night.

The black seeps quietly, stealthily into me. Taking over the sweet blue that had numbed me before. And the black strikes me in the face like a whiplash and tells me simply.

Wake up, sleepyhead. It's time for reality.

Black tears streak down my face and fall into the darkened abyss of the vacuum I once would have called my heart.

Someone tell me I'm getting too emo for my own good.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


One down, 2849372 more to go!

Okay, no, I was kidding. 79 to go.

Okay no, i kidded again. it's 16.

Okay- yes i mean it this time.


You don't believe me?

Have I heard of the boy who cried wolf? Um. No?




Unless of course, you're REALLY smart and you go IP. 

But you'll still have to take the A levels in the end ANYWAY. So there. HMPH.

I think I'm bipolar. Like RIS LOW. AHAHA. She cracks me up. 


Monday, October 19, 2009

Simple faith, and child-like innocence

Matthew 18:3-4
"I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."

All That Jazz

Srsly, omg watch this girl. She puts all us dancers to shame :/

Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I'm missing you so terribly, it's quite, quite sad. Don't know if I'm doing the right thing by not talking to you now, but I guess, it never hurts to try? Or maybe it'll hurt more than I thought. Much, much more.

Saturday, October 17, 2009


It is night, where I stand.

The world, shrouded in a fog of inky darkness. The air tastes cold, fresh, new. A rush of wind brushes past me, ever so gently tousling my hair.

Where I stand, the sky is unobscured. There are no cement towers to block me from its marvelous expanse, no man-made distractions to take away the breath-taking splendour of God’s creations. No. It was just me, and the sky.

The grass beneath my bare feet felt moist and inviting. Every dewdrop tasted delicious on my skin, tantalizing me to revel in it, to just lie down and forget the world, savour the sweetness of clean, untainted grass. Grass grown naturally wherever they delighted, not controlled nor restrained, to be trampled on and spat on by the uncouth.

No unnatural lights disrupt the beauty of the night here. Tilting my head just the slightest bit upward, I see them.

I see them all decked in their splendid gowns of brilliant white. The purest shades of dove’s feathers, the lightest tinge of cloud. Their long flowing hair spread out like a sea around their heads, untamed, unrestrained. Masses of gold, silk-spun hay. I see the stars. The stars with faces like angels, their radiance so sweet and immaculate, I felt small. I felt belittled. I felt inadequate in their glory. I wanted to crawl into a hole and hide myself till the sun rose and outshone them, so I would feel better. But they smiled at me, their wondrous smiles filling me with an incomparable joy. An incomprehensible peace.

I felt light, like the froths one would see when waves come rushing in to break on the massive rocks. The peace amidst the storm.

I can see for miles, where I stand. See past places us humans inhabit, see past places us humans destroy. I can almost see right to the ends of the earth. But still, I do not see what I am looking for.

I wonder where heaven is. Some magnificent glorious place high above the clouds? I’d always doubted that theory. I’d imagined heaven to be right at the horizon of the end of the earth. I’d imagined it to be in clear view from where I stood. Evidently, it wasn’t.

I looked so hard I felt the backs of my eyes burn, but still, I do not see. I do not see you.

Does heaven have such wonderful grass, such beautiful skies? Heaven must be a delightful place to be. Why didn’t you take me with you there? But I imagine you must be having a ball with the angels there, no need my company.

Tell me again, how it felt when you’d met God! Did you see his face? Did He shine as bright as the sun so that you couldn’t look Him straight in the face?

Tell me, so I can prepare myself to meet Him. So that the day I meet you again, I’ll be ready. Ready to meet God, ready to meet you.

Remember me. Remember me wherever you are.

It is night, where I stand. I hope it is too where you do, because then maybe, we might be under the canopy of the same dark sky, watching the glittering of the same thousand stars.

Friday, October 16, 2009

The natural, and the supernatural (and the man-made)

Just had this sudden urge to marvel at the wonders of nature accompanied by the wondrous man-made goodness that I can enjoy (: Hahahaha. What can I say, the Lord blesses me with these simple joys, makes life a whole lot more bearable (:

When the heavens open
Shafts of brilliant light break through
The pearly clouds
To meet the earth
To meet the crystal waters
To meet the luxurious greens
To meet the lens and the shutter
Of my camera

The Lord granted wisdom
The ability
The talent
To put together a blend
Of cacao beans, 
Sugar and milk
And a fluffy marshmallow
To bless the hearts
Of cold Singaporeans 
Vacationing in Australia

Talking To Your Teenager

Woah boy, I just got through an intense crying session. No no, don't judge me first. I know yeah I'm emotional and such but I'll tell you why I cried. I was feeling a bit sian of messing with numbers so I went to look at my dad's bookshelf where his SCORES of self-help book stuff are lined up neatly.

And I saw a whole lot of teen-related books. Such as 'how to raise your teenager' or 'talking to your teen' and stuff. So I decided to have a look. And as I read through one of the books, I found myself crying. Like, I really appreciated my parents and how much they love me and have done for me, but there were also bits i the book I wonder why they never talked to me about earlier and things I wish I didn't do or didn't say.

I honestly wonder why my parents didn't talk through with me or followed some of the points they'd given in the book. WHY? It totally would have helped okay. And while I talk to my parents, I have to admit there's a good lot of things I don't tell them. And it's these things that maybe if they'd talked to me about, I would have shared with them.

Anyways. I'm really really trying to be a better daughter now. Not make them angry so much.  Stop doing stupid things. Stop screwing up my life. Listen to them, because i know they only want the best for me. Imma go study now, see what a good girl I am (: HAHA.

I would say this has been a revelation from the Lord, well and truly. I was just telling the Lord to speak to me, and speak to me He has. (:

Over the mountains and the seas
Your river runs with love for me
And i will open up my heart and let the healer set me free

I'm happy to be in the truth
And I will daily lift my hands
For I will always sing of when your love came down

Thursday, October 15, 2009


Oh yes, btw, I got meself a tagboard. HAHA. It's riiiiight at the bottom of the page so go go scroll! :D

And when the sky is falling,

It's really really intriguing how time flies by. In 6 days, I will be taking my first GCE O level exam paper. :O In 29 days, my GCE O level examinations would be officially OVER. LIKE WOAH RIGHT. 

And then in a month and nine days time, I would have my Secondary Four Graduation Prom! It's like woooosh! Where have the years gone? I really wonder if the past 16 years of my life have been lived well. I mean, did I screw anything up too badly? 

Well, not reaally, apart from the past ten months of my life and the confusing little bubble I've been living in. I didn't take drugs or get expelled or get myself knocked up or anything. So that, generally, has been smooth-sailing. 

Now, how's the next 20 years of my life gonna be? Gosh, I really can't see. I feel like I'm trapped in one of those crazy mazes with overgrown hedges but this time it's worse, cause there's a thick haze that has settled around you such that it's a little hard to breathe, and you're literally playing for your life. 

You'll meet people along the way who might help you, hold your hand for a bit, cry with you for a while. But there're those who lead you the wrong way, deeper into the heart of the maze. Not all of them do it intentionally, mind you. I'm sure some had kind intentions, but they too are lost and when you have one blind man leading another, you both end up stumbling and then you lose each other in the thick fog. 

And so here you are, all alone once more. Even more lost than usual. And of course, you'll have the one or two bigger people who are tall enough almost, to see over the maze, and that helps a lot, but they won't be around forever. 

And then. There's your daddy. He comes right into the maze, he doesn't worry about getting lost, he doesn't care. He's just coming right in because he hears your cries for help. He finds you, picks you up and holds you in his arms. He tells you everything's gonna be alright, and not to be afraid. It doesn't mean he gets you right out of the maze, but he's there and that's all you need. That's all I need. My daddy God to hold me (:

Imma cling onto Him for life, specially through these crazy fogs. Pray for me, I'll pray for all you too. (:

And when the sky is falling,
Don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear I'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fast road.

It's just your doubt that binds you.
Just drop those thoughts behind you now. 
Change your mind.

Let go too soon.